Anyhoo, dating sucked. It was stressful, awkward and I once had a guy sing in the car on the way to the restaurant, in the restaurant and on the way home. No love match there. The worst part for me was my own kooky insecurities:
"Do I have something in my teeth? Oh crap, do I have something in my nose?! Who should pay? Does he like me? Is this going well? Wait, how long has it been since he stopped talking??? The silence has gone on too long, say something stupid!"
"So...uh...this is fun...right?"
Part of me always wanted to revert back to grade school dating tricks:
Once I was married, I did a happy dance that my horrifying dating days were over. Or so I thought. Turns out when you get knocked up, if you don't have a built in system of friends or close family with kids the same age, you're right back in a dating pool of another sort...I never worried about Toot having friends at first, a kid can't really "play" when their biggest talent is staring at the ceiling fan. But now she's two and I can't deny it any longer. My kid needs some friends. Luckily there's a park close by and she LOVES it there.
Of course said park is filled with kids and...their moms. Now I find myself in the same cringe-worthy position I was in when I was dating. Trying to catch an eye, giving them a friendly smile or nod, looking out of the corner of my eye to see if they're looking at me, attempting to not look desperate, sucking in my stomach so I look thinner...after all, you gotta win over the moms.
And then, amazingly, I'm right back where I started:"Do I have something in my teeth? Oh crap, do I have something in my nose?! Who should pay? Does she like me? Is this going well? Wait, how long has it been since she stopped talking??? The silence has gone on too long, say something stupid!"
"So...uh...this is fun...right?"
Finding your path through the sea of motherhood can be tricky. Of course for my part, I could never imagine someone NOT wanting to have Toot around, she's a hoot! Plus, come on...she's pretty cute if I do say so myself.
But I never realize it would be up to me to get the ball rolling. I've got to wade into the deep end and start flirting up the moms and see who flirts back and then it's on. My kids gets a friend, some social skills and who knows...I may learn some new social skills too.














